I started this page back in 2018. Five whole years ago. It doesn't seem like it's been that long, but numbers don't like and that's the date of my first draft post. I was too nervous then to publish the 'about me' page. The only page one would expect to post immediately, sat in my drafts for five whole years.
People are thinking about us a lot less than we think, so finally –the drafts are published. And, you're the first to read all about it.
Welcome to my life; the highs, the lows and the in-betweens.
I am a jack of many trades, but a master of very few. This is partially due to my tendency to over-commit, and partially to the other tendency to hyper-fixate on new ideas until they aren't new anymore. However, one thing that's always been brewing in the back of my mind is being an agent of change and impact. I like to leave a wake in my midst for the betterment of those I've impacted. But, why medicine and why now?
At my core, who am I?
I don't know about you, but this was something I only came to realize very recently. I am quite proud of the outcome, but the journey was not glamorous. I had to wallow in the lows for them to force me to search for this answer. In college, my credo was "to be a voice for forgotten people." Which was very nice, but as time went on, I felt that a voice wasn't strong enough.
Then, finally, I found it.
An Agent For Change Where Others Dare Venture
This credo may very well change in a few years. In fact, I expect it will. Change reflects growth and I intend to always be growing and glowing. But, for now, this encompasses well enough.
I work for a med tech company that probably would bring me the closest to feeding that driving force inside of me than any other company ever could. They lead with a patient-focused mindset that makes all the difference in innovation and dominating the market landscape. It's with that same energy I want to conquer my own passions, they just unfortunately can't be reached via corporate sponsorship. I quickly realized I needed more.
For years I grinded in the dark basement of our engineering lab. Striving to gain the skills I'd need to excel in the corporate world. Saving the day. creating ground-breaking devices. Ultimately, that's not what corporate America is really about and that's okay! The lessons one learns navigating the corporate world is insurmountable to any textbook you could ever read. I am grateful for this stop, but it is just that. A stop in my journey..
So, why now?
I was getting there. Basically, why not? I'm young, I have time, and I have passion. I know what it's like to spend my days on the corporate hamster wheel chasing my shiny green carrot. I'm not pivoting into medicine for the money. I'm not really a fan of volunteering if there's a way to leverage my skills in exchange for compensation because I value security. However, at the end of the day, I know that giving up easy money in the corporate world for grueling work that feeds my soul is what I'd rather do. No matter how tough the unknown world of medicine gets, I know what the alternative is and I can't get back on my wheel just yet. There's far too much to accomplish in the meantime,
So, for now, I focus on learning how to establish and maintain a balance that serves me amongst a world of chaos. In a way, going this route allowed me to prepare for the future I dream of. In other words, "stay ready so you don't gotta get ready" when I get there.
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